The one in the movie
Imagine slowing… waking up from a deep sleep, and as you begin to stretch your body, as you begin to open your eyes just as you begin to familarise yourself with your surroundings, just as you look to your window to see how the weather is like that morning, you hear the following words.
“Lights! Camera! Action!”
You look around and find yourself on what looks like a movie set, a one take only, no script , no rehearsal, no director movie set. And to top it all off, you are the main character… the star of the show.
“It’s not the critic who counts, not the man who points out how the strong man stumbled, or when the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena; whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again and again; who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions and spends himself in a worth cause; who at the best, knows in the end the triumph of high achievement; and who at the worst if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat.”
This is most probably one of the most difficult pieces I’ve ever written, I’ve had the conversation more times than I can remember… My tribe knows this all to well I’ve bounced this idea on them every chance I get and yet I struggle to transfer my words and thoughts onto paper… It makes more sense when I’m saying it than when I’m writing it.
The short description of the movie set sounds all corny and farfetched right? Fave would probably say “you watch too many movies” which is true I am a movie fanatic and perhaps that is what led to this epiphany…
I had this realization on random morning in October 2021, I had been off work for two weeks attending an online training course, the first two days were a walk in the park, on the third day waking up became a mission I struggled but still managed to shower and have breakfast before the lesson started. At some point I was slowly falling behind and not really paying attention (this was an online training and I’m more of a, show up and sit in the front of the class type of person, doodling so that I don’t fall asleep) I was fighting with myself every day just to get through the day having given the best of myself to the task at hand. The fighting became a daily thing and on some mornings no amount of fighting would make it easy to get up and get things done. And then it suddenly hit me, while having a conversation with myself I asked ” if you died today, what would you have achieved today ” I had to be honest with myself and say well… ” it could be said I woke up and spent an hour hopping from one app to the next killing time I didn’t really have” I remember feeling like this is a mediocre way to live, I can’t wake up and just lie in bed until I was late like I didnt know what needed to be done for the day.
Now being the imaginative type I imagined I was on the set of a movie, that from the time I woke up until I went to bed my life is being recorded and this is my life’s story a movie that people would be watching. While it may sound corny this helped me be more conscious of what I was doing, why I was doing it and the contributions it could potentially have on my life. Being the staunch movie fanatic that I am, I couldn’t imagine myself watching a bad movie, why then would I make, live out a bad boring movie, that would only waste peoples time. I take offense to bad movies, why would I make a bad movie?
It could be said that out lives are like the short description of the movie scene mentioned earlier, from the time we wake up until we go back to bed, from the moment we are born until the day we die every action we take or don’t take contributes immensely to the quality of the type of life we want to live. And if we are to win, we cannot flirt with the idea of living, play footsie under the table with the idea of success. Winning and whatever definition you use for it requires you to be an active participant in your lifes story, to leave nothing to chance… The people who are killing it in this life thing, are decisive,they plan and follow through on those plans, they are not flirting with the idea of living.
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